I am getting nervous to whether I am going to make this show or not. I hear a lot of girls feel that way 9 weeks out. I am really starting to show more muscle I just need to work on the leaning out part a little more. I just purchased some 100% protein fuel and some isowhey. The isowhey is specifically for water and it is quickly absorbed in your system. It doesn't taste bad but I still like chocolate the best :)
  I have been talking with my dad a lot on competing-he ran the bodybuilding in utah since way before I was born. I just found out he actually started the NPC here in utah. He helps me out and refers me to people and places where he can. I get to go to a posing seminar next month with the first figure winner of the Utah's NGA, Krissy Wolfe. She will be helping with all the things needed to know for the competition :)
 I recently got my body fat % measured and they told me it might be a little higher since I just finished working out. our muscles get dehydrated after you work out and so I will get another test done maybe next week.  Wasn't bad but I would like it down a few points for the show.
  Most days I am so burned out and ready to just order a pizza, diet coke and eat a pan of homemade chocolate cookies while laying in sweats watching my favorite movie. Even just to nibble on a box of sugar cereal sounds good to me. Last night for dinner I had the usual-grilled chicken and spinach but I also added a little chopped onion and peppers and that made it a whole new meal :) I read another competitor wrote,"You have gone this far, why take a step back? Take another step forward to your goal." I liked that. everytime I am craving a cookie, that is what I think about and ask myself how much do I want this?
  I had a couple improvements on my diet and workout routines this week so I hope I will see more improvements and so next time I come back here, I will have good news :)

  Well I am still hanging in there. I added another carb to my diet. I was only eating about 2 carbs a day which was oatmeal for breakfast and brown rice or yams for lunch with a rice cake for snacks-and lots of protein obviously. But I started feeling really hungry and tired by the time 3:00 got here.
  I also have been eating tuna fish and talapia which I NEVER ate before but I am getting used to it. I feel like all I do is workout and eat chicken and spinach..I guess I better be happy with it since I am seeing results (yahoo!) Its a good thing I dont work much at the hospital, otherwise I think I would be having a lot harder time eating clean than I already am. WHEN I do work, I work 12 hour night shifts and there is a lot of juices, chocolate milk, soda, cookies of all kinds, chips of all kinds and other yummy stuff that is hard to stay away from when you are trying to stay awake and get in the extreme snacking mood.
  I just ordered a new and very expensive isowhey protein powder specifically for mixing with water that I am excited to try. Seeing how I have to eliminate my little dairy pretty soon. Well, speaking of food, its that time I get to go stuff food in my mouth to refuel..TTFN until next time.

  So I am really starting this blog for me. I wish I wrote down my experiences and progress on my last contest in 2006, then I could have gone back and compared myself on my progress. So I am starting now and hopefully if I compete later on I can use this blog and look back to help me. So today I have been feeling a little down. I woke up in a rush to get the kids ready and get to my session at the gym. I was able to grab some oatmeal but that was it..Gave me enough energy to exercise but when I was done, my blood sugar was down and I was TIRED! I have eaten well and clean all day today but I can't seem to catch up on it and stay full. Goes to show how important a good breakfast really is!
  So I have 11 weeks before I walk on stage. I still have a long ways to go, I am planning on going up (if I say maybe then I might not make it a goal). I am going to start lifting heavier and doing more strength training than I have been. That is more important to build my muscle at this time. In a few more weeks I will eliminate the little dairy, nuts, condiments, and whole grains I am consuming..Makes ya wonder how people can exercise so much and look so healthy on so little food huh?
  I decided I am hiring a physical trainer to help me out a little. Instead of getting with her a couple times a week, it will be less than that-which I will hopefully still do good. 11 weeks is not very long to train for a bikini contest, but when you are going at it day to day, its an eternity!
I will plan to update my progress and maybe even post pictures of my progress. Depending how I do in the next few weeks. I am getting the diet part down a little better every day.
  When I competed in my first contest. I did the figure division. I was 2 months pregnant at the time and I weighed 125 on my contest day. I was wanting to be less than that this time but I am not counting on it..I plan to be more muscular than I was then. I have been reaching for the goal of drinking a gallon of water daily. Some days I do great, others I can't seem to drink near enough.  I love my family and the support they are giving me. Its hard cooking two different meals every night and not being able to eat the most delicious one.
  Well, I am hoping to see more of a transformation in the next few weeks and I will keep this updated! TTFN

Its time for me to start getting serious with this diet stuff. I have been actually getting pretty serious the last week (except for my entire weekend of cheating during our camping trip-turkey dogs, hot chocolate, cobbler, licorice, bagels) now I am back on schedule and I will get better as the days go on enjoying only certain food which includes pretty much only vegetables and chicken.
The reason for my diet is I am now officially training for a bikini/figure contest. I get to eat steamed asparagus while my family enjoys a very delicous cheese pizza or homemade mac and cheese. (two of my favorite!). I have just a few months to go and I am already tired of the two sessions of cardio a day- 5 days a weeks and all the other yummy stuff that goes with it. I can do this though and I am going to look better this time around than I did in my last figure contest!
We went to lava this weekend and I saw a woman with an amazing body. I knew immediately she was a competitior and I had to go talk to her. She was indeed a figure competitor and she was even on her off season. She looked like she could get up on stage now and win. She also told me she likes to be ready all year and not gain 15-30 lbs after a contest like most of them do..that really inspires me :) It jump -started my modivation back to where it should be...I will post pictures of my progress as soon as I feel I am ready to..Maybe soon :) I still have a long long ways to go and a lot of work to do!! I mean a lot!! So wish me luck and I can do it, I can do it!!