3 Weeks out

So I am just a little over 3 weeks out from my show. I am feeling pretty good about how I look at this point. I still need to be about 10 lbs leaner but I have also been putting on muscle. This week has been the hardest week of all. I have been doing pretty good at not craving too much this time round, I also started later than I did last time. This week, the cravings have been pouring in. Sunday we had dinner at my moms house and she fixed sweet pork and jello pretzel salad then I brough Chuck a rama's recipe of bread pudding. OH..MY..GOODNESS it is good. I cheated a little and had some salad, tasted a little bit of pork and bread pudding to make sure it was good to serve. We also had a birthday party for my little one who just turned 3. I did really good and didn't have any cake or ice cream, I served PB and J sandwhiches cut into fish and starfish for an ariel theme and I had to taste a couple of the scraps. I admit I cheated this weekend but not bad, just 1 bite of everything and I did lose 1-2 lbs. I am officially done with the cheat meals now. I think that is why this week has been so hard, I overloaded on sugar that I haven't had for a couple of months and then took myself right back off it again. Not good

I am doing my 30-45 min of cardio in the mornings following some weight training. When it comes to the nightly exercising, I have been feeling so worn out and tired that I don't feel quite like another 3-45 min. Instead I do sprints on the treadmill for about 15-20 min. My heart has definetly not been where it should be for this show. I just think of the day I will step on the stage again and remember the feelings I had of how good I felt and looked to myself and how much more I enjoyed that piece of cake :)