Working on: Here I Go Again.

This is a little journal I keep for myself. Something that I can go back on and read over and see how far I have come. I dont expect anyone to read it and I know I am not as fit as other competitors. I have been pregnant 4 times, (2 of which I did a show at 2 and 3 months preggo). My skin has stretched and stretched and has added a nice amount of padding (don't forget the lovely, permanent stretch marks) I cannot seem to get away from. The point is, in doing these shows, I have a modivation for me to get fit. To train me to eat healthy and exercise. I love the way its making me feel and the things I am learning in doing so. 

There is another show in 17 weeks. I would (and have been) trying to prepare for that show. I have been working on putting on more muscle. Since I have had my last baby, who is now 19 months old, I have had a harder time losing weight. In fact, I have been gaining! I put on 10 Lbs this year without even changing my diet!! I even cut things out from my diet and still gained! What the CRAP!!  I know some of it has been muscle but I am feeling more bloated and puffy lately. I have had slight hormone/thyroid problems and I am associating the weight gain with that. 

I have learned a lot more since my last show. I have been training myself to have a healthy lifestyle even in the off seasons. Before I would only eat mostly healthy and exercise everyday when I wanted to start a show. I would go back to eating all the same things I did before. I love love love candy and baked goods. That is a weekness I dont think I will ever overcome. I have however, trained my self in self control. I can eat a little here and there instead of going overboard, most of the time.  (One reason I never looked as good as I wanted) I learned I need to make it a permanent lifestyle. I can allow small cheat meal here and there, on vacation. I go out to eat with my family but try and pick healthier options. My kids wanted Mcdonalds while on the road. I ate with them, ate a grilled chicken with no bun or sauce. I feel so good when I am making good choices for my body. I love to weight train. I feel good when I do it, however, I dont like cardio all that much. I dont like running. I get bored and my breathing starts to make my chest hurt and I get a little cough afterwards. However, I have found I can do HIIT Cardio. I get  it done in 30 minutes and its intense enough to get me a good workout. 

I am going to work hard and dedicate myself to try and get to where I feel good. I want to look better than I ever have if I am going to do the show. And in the 17 weeks, If I cant get to that point, I will just continue to work hard and do a show when I get there!